University

Here's a sculpture for you. A ram. Because I'm an Aries in horoscope. It's my first real one ever, I made it a couple of years ago - the materials are clay and acrylic paint.

My friend as commander Shepard. She's a fan of Mass Effect, this was my birthday card for her. She liked it.

Oh yeah, I'm in university now. Started this week. But I'm reaally tired and don't feel like writing about it. I can tell you though that this week has been veery strange for me, because I'm not used to being alone. Well, I'm not completely alone actually, I have my two lovely dogs here to keep me company. But I'm pretty talkative and I don't like it that I always have to call someone if I want to chat. I've made a _lot_ of phone calls this week.

Ugh.

My senior high is almost over... Now I have to study for the university entrance exams and make my sample works. (For fine arts academy) And I have absolutely no time for anything else. 8< But of course it's very important and it's only for a little while.. But it still makes me a bit sad not being able to do all kinds of fun stuff I'd like to now in spring.. Like spending a lot of time outdoors and drawing or painting things I like. Now I only have time for my sample works, which aren't nearly as fun as my "own art"

I've applied to four art universities (three of them are universities of applied sciences and one is the Finnish academy of fine arts) and several other universities. (to study English, history or theology) My current plans for the sample works of the fine arts academy are two sculptures. I was going to paint something too, but now I don't think I have enough time.

Not-so-random randomness

Hmm, it's been long since my last entry.. (again!) I guess I'm a pretty lazy blog 

writer. : P But hey, I made you comics to compensate my resent slackness!

Yeah, I'm drawing myself as both human and crestie now : D

I still prefer the doggie, though.

A lot of things have happened.. And I haven't told you any of it D: But at least I wanted to say something about christmas, even though it's kind of late already. (It's so important to me! I couldn't just ignore it)

AND I had my penkkarit! I was so incredibly excited about them. But my costume took forever to make. I made a Moomintroll costume all by myself. It was harded to make than I thought, but really worth the trouble! It was so fun to be a moomin! And all the kids loved me : D

Info for the possible non-Finnish readers: in Finland we have this thing called "Penkkarit" (short for "penkinpainajaiset") which is a party held for (and by) the high school seniors who have finished their schoolwork. It's not a graduation party, because we still have matriculation exams and we have to study for them. (The graduation is at the beginning of summer) But we have finished the courses and have no classes anymore, so our "real schoolwork" is over and the whole school celebrates that for a day. : D It's a bit like a carnival. The seniors dress up in funny costumes and walk around the school tossing candy to the younger students, act all silly and have fun. Finally we drive around the town in a truck and visit the other schools and nurseries to toss some candy to the children too.

The next day I and three of my best friends went to a little trip to a nice spa - we stayed there for the weekend. It was kind of an extension to the party : D Most of the others from our school went to a cruise.. But we didn't want to go there, because none of us drinks alcohol and we knew that the cruise wasn't going to be much about anything else than getting extremely drunk. So we arranged our own trip! And we had a great deal of fun too. I fell in love with the spa's super-long water slide.

Watching TV with mom:

I quess this will have to do for now. 

The first picture promised you some random stuff... But this wasn't so random after all 83 I'm a horrible liar.

Getting ready for Father's Day

Father's Day is coming again! (here in Finland it's tomorrow) I'm making a cake and a card for my dear dad, just like every year. I've already bought him two presents too, but I won't tell about them just yet! (Just in case he'd read this.. He knows about me keeping a blog and he has seen me writing here.) Obviously I'm very busy at the moment so I won't write more this time, but I'll show you a sketch of the card.

I'm drawing a draenei from the World of Warcraft. : D My dad plays the game and draenei is his favorite race.

Animal photography

I really want to get a good camera so I could take better pictures of animals : <

I took this photo many years ago, and it's one of my favorite horse photos. Mainly because I loved that time of my life and it contains wonderful memories to me, but also because I find the pose funny.

This is just something I made because I was extremely bored and feeling a bit blue. Nothing like a bull terrier to cheer you up! : D The picture quality is horrible, I know, but these are just some old photos I found and quickly put together. The dogs are both female bull terriers, the white one is Lumi, the same dog my first entry was about, and the other one is Eben, our younger bullie. This smiley expression is actually fairly common to them, they make it everyday whenever they want to seem lovable and get some attention and care. It usually includes some laugh-like snorting noises too. It's impossible not to laugh when they do that!

Just so you know: Lumi isn't really missing any teeth, it just looks a bit like that 'cause her tongue or lip is covering some of the teeth or something.



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Infernal pain

8'D I've always wanted to use the word "infernal" somewhere. (YES! I've done it)

Seriously now, I've probably never experienced such physical pain as I did yesterday, when I had a whole toenail pulled off. The nail was so sick and infected already that the anesthesia didn't work.

I'd love to tell you the whole story later, but right now I don't have enough time. But I'll show you this sketch I made just minutes ago:

Later:

So, here comes the story of my bloody toe. Don't read it if you can't stand mental images of blood, pain or other disgusting things. It's not so pretty.

I've had problems with the nail of my right hallux for over an year now. All kinds of nasty things you can imagine: cracking, darkening, softening, stink... Horrible. I've tried everything I could imagine. Cutting, medication, ointments and stuff, but nothing worked, so I just waited to see if it would just heal itself over time. But few days ago the whole nail got brown and cracked badly and I thought that it was quite clear that it was never going to heal again. So I went to a doctor and asked if it should be removed. She told me that it was the only way to get a healthy nail and I decided to let them do it. But I didn't know that it was going to hurt so much- if I would have known, I maybe wouldn't have done it. I'm quite sensitive to pain and afraid of doctors hurting me, because of my bad doctor memories from the childhood. This just made things worse, of course. Even though I know it's irrational and not true, (at least in most cases) I feel like the doctors are sadistic and always just want to hurt me as much as they can. : P

Well, as I said before the removal did hurt. Like hell, I tell you. The main reason was that the anesthesia didn't work well (they used 4 syringes but it just made the skin numb) because the toe was inflamed and the nail was so sick already. It wasn't so bad at first but when they started to pull the nail off harder and it started to hurt real bad I asked them if they could use more anesthetic. They just said that it wouldn't help and that they didn't have time, and that they just wanted to get the whole thing out of the way. (What a nice thing to hear, when you're scared and in pain, really.) So they continued and I was in a bit of a panic but remained quite calm anyway. Actually I'd say I took it well. As I said, I'm usually sensitive to pain and for that some people think I'm wimpy but I just kept thinking that it's nothing I couldn't stand, that it won't last forever and things like that. Sure I was shaking and stuff but I stayed still and quiet. : D (Or quiet most of the time, at least) The other reason that made the removal hurt more and last longer was that the nail was so soft and in such a bad shape that it didn't come off in one piece. It shattered to many several pieces and they had to remove them one by one.

And now I have a huge bandage around the toe and I'm not allowed to walk for at least three days, because walking makes it bleed more. It'll take about half an year of more until the new nail is grown. At the moment I'm mostly pissed by the bleeding and pain that I get whenever I move the darn foot. (And of course the fact that I can't do anything or go anywhere.. I can't go to school, though I have a million urgent things and projects waiting there.) Tomorrow morning is the first time I need to clean the wound and change the bandages.. I already fear the time when I'll see the wound. I haven't seen it yet but I'm sure it's not pretty. I don't want to see a giant hole where my nail should be : <

Well, that's the whole story for you. Wasn't it wonderful. I know I'm maybe taking it too seriously but for me it feels just horrible.. And that makes me think that I'm being ridiculous. It's only a nail, after all.


Can you believe that I just wrote such a long entry merely about one of my toes? 8'D

I'm so bored

All my plans for this weekend failed : < But then again, now I have lots of time for drawing for once.

A sketch I made today.. I just couldn't get the ground-touching legs right so I left them out. But I'll try again later and if I can make them work I might use this sketch to make a finished, colored drawing.

I looove Tove Jansson and her novels and art. This is a quick little fan art pick of Seafilly, one of the characters of her moomin stories. I hate the way her body turned out and I wasn't even going to put this here but I really like the coloring and the shape of the mane and tail so because of them I decided to accept it.